Every day I learn about a new Twitch Guy I’ve never heard of before in my life who is apparently the Most Popular Man Ever and capable of creating minor sociological phenomenon at a whim
Harry and his relationship with his own disability is so tragic to me. Because you have this man who is disabled in *so* many different ways, he’s physically paralysed in his jaw, he’s got severe nerve damage and internally his organs are going into shutdown due to the alcohol/drug use, but then on top of that you have the mental illness, the depression, the potential schizophrenia, the adhd/autism and you end up with this man who is in So Much Pain all the time from every imaginable angle. He’s overstimulated every second of every day. Everything hurts him, including light and sounds. The world screams at him. He can’t emote in a way that others relate to. Every inch of him physically hurts and he’s one insult away from death. He can’t get better- chronic illness is chronic illness, he’s just going to be *like that* forever- so what is there left to do but get worse?
And then he’s trapped in a system that values capital above human life. Capitalism treats disabled people like burdens but that won’t stop them from wringing every last drop of life out of you. Empathy isn’t profitable. The only percieved worth he has to the society around him is his productivity, his work for the RCM maintaining the status quo for capitalist interests, and its so entwined with *who he is* that it’s impossible to separate him out from it. He is the Law. A force, not a human. He has to dehumanise himself to keep going. And really he does have to keep going, like a shark dying if they stop moving; there is no other option for him. What chance is there for him if he stops working? He’s institutionalised- the RCM quite literally lives in his brain as esprit de corps. He can’t escape them. He is the infernal engine. He will never stop. But his body, his health, are collateral damage. And to Harry, all that is inconsequential as long as he’s doing his job.
Every day I learn about a new Twitch Guy I’ve never heard of before in my life who is apparently the Most Popular Man Ever and capable of creating minor sociological phenomenon at a whim
Harry and his relationship with his own disability is so tragic to me. Because you have this man who is disabled in *so* many different ways, he’s physically paralysed in his jaw, he’s got severe nerve damage and internally his organs are going into shutdown due to the alcohol/drug use, but then on top of that you have the mental illness, the depression, the potential schizophrenia, the adhd/autism and you end up with this man who is in So Much Pain all the time from every imaginable angle. He’s overstimulated every second of every day. Everything hurts him, including light and sounds. The world screams at him. He can’t emote in a way that others relate to. Every inch of him physically hurts and he’s one insult away from death. He can’t get better- chronic illness is chronic illness, he’s just going to be *like that* forever- so what is there left to do but get worse?
And then he’s trapped in a system that values capital above human life. Capitalism treats disabled people like burdens but that won’t stop them from wringing every last drop of life out of you. Empathy isn’t profitable. The only percieved worth he has to the society around him is his productivity, his work for the RCM maintaining the status quo for capitalist interests, and its so entwined with *who he is* that it’s impossible to separate him out from it. He is the Law. A force, not a human. He has to dehumanise himself to keep going. And really he does have to keep going, like a shark dying if they stop moving; there is no other option for him. What chance is there for him if he stops working? He’s institutionalised- the RCM quite literally lives in his brain as esprit de corps. He can’t escape them. He is the infernal engine. He will never stop. But his body, his health, are collateral damage. And to Harry, all that is inconsequential as long as he’s doing his job.
